This is a video that Ellen made up in response to the recent rash of gay/bullying suicides.

Not to detract from the whole story she just told, but I was victim of it too. I suffer from PTSD in regards to one incident where my sexuality and bullying was combined. I nearly killed myself that time. I was the butt of “jokes” from others who thought it would be funny to make a date with me and then stand me up.

This is not acceptable on any level.

Those of you who think it is, need to go to the psychologist worse than the victims of your “jokes” do. This scars for life. There is NO fixing it.

To my shame, I passed on the abuse to others. I can’t make up for it, but when I found out that I had done so, I tried to make it right. There is no fixing it, but the cycle can be stopped.

I’ve had this photo up on my desktop as a wallpaper for quite some time, but I don’t know where it came from.

My friend, Karen Anne Summerfield, sent it to me in a batch at one point, but didn’t include any additional information.

A Beautiful Victorian Gown

I figure it is a part of some photoshoot someplace, and if ANYONE who reads this knows where it came from, if you would please comment and let me know? Pretty please?

I’d so love to have this. I know it’s heavy and it is not practical for much. It’s probably a mourning suit. But it looks lovely.

In other news, Chaz Bono is finally officially a man. Don’t read the comments unless you like being pissed off.

I’ve been dreaming and I came up with this uniform for me.

I was never a cheerleader when I was young, but I wanted to be. I’ve been looking around at a lot of places and just dreaming, and I decided to come up with a wishlist of my favorite pieces. If I ever get the money together I plan on getting this outfit. Total is $132.92, but the individual items are pretty reasonable.

The items below are on my personal Wish List at TeamExpress.com.

Click each item name link below to learn more:

Powerbows Large Two-Toned Plain Color Cheer Bow
1572PLN
$7.99
Desired Quantity: 1

Hind Team Women’s Hugger Track Brief
11160BLKM
MED
$29.99
Desired Quantity: 1

Alleson Athletic Adult Solid Stretch Cheer Shell
C105ROYXL
XLG
$18.99
Desired Quantity: 1

Alleson Athletic Adult Cheer Body Suit
C303BRBLXL
X-LARGE
$18.99
Desired Quantity: 1

Alleson Athletic Adult Multi-Pleated Cheer Skirt
C201MRBL/WHTXL
X-LARGE
$24.99
Desired Quantity: 1

Alleson Athletics Adult Midriff Cheer Top
C302MRBLXL
XL
$14.99
Desired Quantity: 1

Alleson Athletics Adult Cheer Brief
C300RBLXL
X-LARGE
$7.99
Desired Quantity: 1

Custom Cheer 3-Layer Texas Hair Bows
1588
$8.99
Desired Quantity: 1

Anyhow, just posting this for people to see, and wishing and dreaming.

Hello all,

Sorry it’s taken so long for me to get back here, but real life has intervened again and again. First there were all kinds of emergencies with our power and Internet, then HE decided to completely screw with his laptop and get Linux instead of Windows. That done, he had to spend time getting it all back to the same level of functionality as we had before.

But now that’s done and I can start writing again.

The muse has abandoned us, but we hope it will come back sometime soon.

Meanwhile, I found my perfect collar. http://cli.gs/GthEz It’s the perfect collar for me, so does anyone want to buy it for me? I plan on having it inscribed with my owner’s name, my name and title and the Slave Registry Number and bar-code. As soon as I have the money to buy it, I will apply for a slave registry number.

Then I want to get one of the medical chips and get all my medical records transfered to it, make sure it has a GPS tracker on it, and then my SRN and barcode and so on. Can’t WAIT for that. I will be truly owned by my Lady, and a happy little Maid.

Thank you for following me and reading here.

Well, things have become confrontational on the message boards of both Crystal’s site and FictionMania. It’s starting to bleed over to TopShelf too, but hopefully it won’t reach there.

The problem is with a gentleman by the name of “Noah Vail” (a cute pun on “no avail”). He wrote several stories featuring an 8 year old being taken by adults in a sexual manner while dressed as a little girl.

The controversy’s shape is about “what is censorship”? There are a lot of people on both sites that want his stories removed posthaste, because they promote kiddie porn. They deal with sex situations with minor children. That is an accurate definition of the problem.

My take on it all? I don’t really have one. You see, I believe deeply in “live and let live”. While I do feel that both FictionMania and Crystal’s should stand by their posted Terms of Service and delete the stories (for promoting illegal acts, which is on their terms of service), I don’t think they should be removed from the Internet.

Let’s be rational. People are going to write stories that fit their perversions and nothing and no one is going to stop them. Him writing this for his own use is fine. Him sharing it with others is also fine. I don’t agree with the content at all, nor do I get aroused by the thought of a 10 year old having sex, but in America speech is protected.

He’s going to advocate that kind of activity, fine. He may do so. I don’t have to read it. The sites he has posted them on have Terms of Service that explicitly prohibit illegal acts, and as such they should stand by it and remove the stories. If they did not have such in their TOS, I wouldn’t ask them to remove the stories.

I can exercise my option and “change the channel” so as not to read what I find offensive.

Point in fact, I started reading one of the stories, just to see what was objectionable. I saw “my mother dressed me as a girl at 8 years old for her Johns” in the first sentence, and that was enough for me. I closed the window.

Let him write it, let him post it to sites that do not have clauses about no illegal activities. I’m fine with that. I don’t have to read it. It is as simple as that.

Well, it looks like there aren’t any more Chasti-Permalock stories I can archive here. I found them all and now all of them are posted. So, thing have to change now.

I have three stories that are making in the back of my mind, and they will be finished, edited and up soon. They are one of each series, Sissy, Samantha and Mindy.

So, now back to the regularly scheduled stories.

But I’m also busy getting my OTHER site and moving it. So things will slow here. I’m not abandoning you all, but I’m not going to post as often here. Sorry about that.

I still love you all, and plan to continue this site. Don’t fret, things are wonderful, and I am very happy.