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 Can’t really say it better

October 2nd, 2010 3 comments

This is a video that Ellen made up in response to the recent rash of gay/bullying suicides.

Not to detract from the whole story she just told, but I was victim of it too. I suffer from PTSD in regards to one incident where my sexuality and bullying was combined. I nearly killed myself that time. I was the butt of “jokes” from others who thought it would be funny to make a date with me and then stand me up.

This is not acceptable on any level.

Those of you who think it is, need to go to the psychologist worse than the victims of your “jokes” do. This scars for life. There is NO fixing it.

To my shame, I passed on the abuse to others. I can’t make up for it, but when I found out that I had done so, I tried to make it right. There is no fixing it, but the cycle can be stopped.

 Victorian Finery

May 8th, 2010 2 comments

I’ve had this photo up on my desktop as a wallpaper for quite some time, but I don’t know where it came from.

My friend, Karen Anne Summerfield, sent it to me in a batch at one point, but didn’t include any additional information.

A Beautiful Victorian Gown

I figure it is a part of some photoshoot someplace, and if ANYONE who reads this knows where it came from, if you would please comment and let me know? Pretty please?

I’d so love to have this. I know it’s heavy and it is not practical for much. It’s probably a mourning suit. But it looks lovely.

In other news, Chaz Bono is finally officially a man. Don’t read the comments unless you like being pissed off.

 Need a Job?

May 5th, 2010 1 comment

United ENDA is making a call to EVERY GBLT person out there who is unemployed. They want you to go to your Congressperson’s office with your resume and to apply for a job.

Full details here.

I’m out of work, I’m transgendered, and I want a job. Honestly? I want to do this. But I am afraid. I know I don’t pass when I’m dressed, and I don’t have many work-appropriate clothes. I could do it.

I want to do it. I am terribly scared.

I don’t want to talk myself out of it, but then it’s one of those things that could be so easily ignored.

So scared.

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 Cheerleader Wishlist

April 28th, 2010 2 comments

I’ve been dreaming and I came up with this uniform for me.

I was never a cheerleader when I was young, but I wanted to be. I’ve been looking around at a lot of places and just dreaming, and I decided to come up with a wishlist of my favorite pieces. If I ever get the money together I plan on getting this outfit. Total is $132.92, but the individual items are pretty reasonable.

The items below are on my personal Wish List at TeamExpress.com.

Click each item name link below to learn more:

Powerbows Large Two-Toned Plain Color Cheer Bow
1572PLN
$7.99
Desired Quantity: 1

Hind Team Women’s Hugger Track Brief
11160BLKM
MED
$29.99
Desired Quantity: 1

Alleson Athletic Adult Solid Stretch Cheer Shell
C105ROYXL
XLG
$18.99
Desired Quantity: 1

Alleson Athletic Adult Cheer Body Suit
C303BRBLXL
X-LARGE
$18.99
Desired Quantity: 1

Alleson Athletic Adult Multi-Pleated Cheer Skirt
C201MRBL/WHTXL
X-LARGE
$24.99
Desired Quantity: 1

Alleson Athletics Adult Midriff Cheer Top
C302MRBLXL
XL
$14.99
Desired Quantity: 1

Alleson Athletics Adult Cheer Brief
C300RBLXL
X-LARGE
$7.99
Desired Quantity: 1

Custom Cheer 3-Layer Texas Hair Bows
1588
$8.99
Desired Quantity: 1

Anyhow, just posting this for people to see, and wishing and dreaming.

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 Saving Maria

April 22nd, 2010 No comments

Dan & Maria were deeply in love and engaged to be married. Well, she was head over heels in love with him. He declared his love for her but it seemed only skin deep. Maria didn’t mind. At last she had someone who cared for her. Or, so she thought… Read more…

 Long time no write

April 18th, 2010 2 comments

Hello all,

Sorry it’s taken so long for me to get back here, but real life has intervened again and again. First there were all kinds of emergencies with our power and Internet, then HE decided to completely screw with his laptop and get Linux instead of Windows. That done, he had to spend time getting it all back to the same level of functionality as we had before.

But now that’s done and I can start writing again.

The muse has abandoned us, but we hope it will come back sometime soon.

Meanwhile, I found my perfect collar. http://cli.gs/GthEz It’s the perfect collar for me, so does anyone want to buy it for me? I plan on having it inscribed with my owner’s name, my name and title and the Slave Registry Number and bar-code. As soon as I have the money to buy it, I will apply for a slave registry number.

Then I want to get one of the medical chips and get all my medical records transfered to it, make sure it has a GPS tracker on it, and then my SRN and barcode and so on. Can’t WAIT for that. I will be truly owned by my Lady, and a happy little Maid.

Thank you for following me and reading here.

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